However, the male protagonist loves the villain

Chapter 64

After a while, the car finally drove off the high speed.

Pei Lin: "Go to the east of the city first and send him home."

The city is not too big, and the car quickly arrived at the downstairs of Huo Xiuxun's rented apartment.Pei Lin didn't say much, just grabbed Huo Xiuxun's wrist and pulled him out of the car together.

Tang Caiping: "Xiao Lin! Let's book your birthday party at the hotel tonight..."

Pei Lin: "Well, don't worry, I will go then."

Tang Caiping: "Oh, then please persuade Xun Xun well, the two of you come together!"

"No problem, I'll take him there tonight."

That being said, but...

In the heavy rain, Tang Caiping first took a look at Huo Xiuxun's bent, aggrieved and slightly trembling back, and then couldn't help but look suspiciously at her son who was usually expressionless and didn't really look like he had any ability to deceive people.

With that pissing indifference, not to mention very similar to her husband, at least the same, right?

Are you sure you can coax people?It won't get worse, will it?

Pei Libin: "Hey! Don't worry about it. Let's not take care of children's affairs. What big conflicts can there be?" After finishing speaking, he kicked the accelerator and drove away with his wife.

What kind of contradiction can there be?Tang Caiping was angry: "That's what you said back then, but it turned out to be a conflict of divorce! Stupid dog man! It makes people angry, and you have nothing good with the surname Pei!"

Pei Libin: "Okay, it hurts..."

"Go upstairs first."

After the two left, Pei Lin sighed, grabbed Huo Xiuxun's wrist and dragged him home.

It was raining heavily outside, so I went home first and then reasoned, but the rain was wet and slippery, and the clamped wrist came off easily.

Pei Lin: "Hey, seth!"

It's good now, don't let go.Absolutely, is this the painful youth literature of "Running in the Heavy Rain" that was turned over on the bookshelf?He runs, he chases, he can't fly?

Huo Xiuxun deserves to be the No. 1000 in the 1-meter long-distance race in the school sports meeting. He ran more than two or three kilometers in one breath.

In fact, Pei Lin could also run this long-distance race, but he never signed up because he was too tired.I never expected to escape the school sports meeting, run wild in the rain during the rainy season, and finally have to run a big one alive!

Huo Xiuxun ran all the way to the green embankment of the river that runs through the city.

The road was slippery in the rain, and he got caught in the mud, lost his balance and rolled down the slope.

Fortunately, the slope of the embankment is full of grass and it doesn't hurt people very much, but the lawn is full of silt.Huo Xiuxun rolled a few times, and instantly became a miserable little wild mud dog. However, the mud was still heavy and sticky, so he failed to get up after several times of climbing.

Pei Lin had no choice but to jump down with him, and his legs were also covered in mud.

He reached out to pick up the miserable little mud dog, but Huo Xiuxun was wearing his coat again today.Under the year-round coercion of his mother's extreme aesthetics, there are not many particularly decent clothes in his entire wardrobe. The most decent one is rare and even the fur collar is covered with mud at the moment, and it looks like it is hopeless.

"Ah……"

So he could only helplessly laugh again.Just like when they watched Huo Xiuxun cry in the car just now, he didn't show any sympathy that he should have.This completely ignorant attitude obviously irritated Huo Xiuxun again, and he opened his mouth to bite him with red eyes.

Like a wild and unruly Kazakh cat on the side of the road, Pei Lin: "All right, all right, you bite, I'll bite you. If you have the ability, you really bite."

"Come here if you don't think it's dirty, bite?"

In the end, I was really bitten, and I just smacked my mouth and didn't let go!

Awesome, amazing, amazing!

Enough to see how crazy and how hated it is, right?

……

Pei Lin was convinced.

He put all his strength on the little dirty dog's waist.Let Huo Xiuxun's body stiffen into a piece of steel that cannot be refined, let the little dirty dog ​​go crazy, whine from his throat, hit him hard with his mouth in his mouth.

Yes, the essence is to bite, and it doesn't hurt at all.

bald.

In fact, he can understand Huo Xiuxun's sudden collapse intellectually, and he also knows how much stimulation his current easy-going appearance has imposed on someone's already extremely fragile nerves.

Sighing, he folded his arms, and wrapped the little mud dog in his arms even harder.The heavy rain is very cold, only the chest is hot and throbbing, and the drowned puppy is always so pitiful that people can't help but want to hug him.

but.

You can't get used to bad habits every day.

"Xiao Xun, don't you think that the interesting thing about human beings is that even if they hold hands, face to face, and live together for a long time, they still can't completely open their hearts and reveal to each other what they really think? "

"That's why people are constantly testing each other out."

"Like a clumsy little snail."

"Time and time again, with expectations and indifference, they stretch out their tentacles unwillingly to each other."

"Exploration again and again, joy, disappointment, injury, reconstruction, little by little, stacking and stacking, like swallows building nests day after day, year after year."

"..."

"I know, according to the logic of those books on your bookshelf, don't talk about true love, even if a person has a little sincerity for you, he should have no hesitation, 'choose you firmly', believe in you, rely on you, and never look back. No doubt, I leave everything to you. Isn't that right?"

"Otherwise, it's a fake. It's a sophisticated robot without heart and emotion, which will trigger your ultimate paranoia of persecution."

"No matter how much time I spend laughing with you, making trouble with you, and pretending to be a dinosaur and running around with you, I'm lying to you, right?"

"..."

The heavy rain continued to pour.

On the low shrub beside him, there happened to be two wet little snails on the emerald green leaves.They were dazed by the rain, sticky, clumsy, sticky, and silly.

"But Xiao Xun, have you ever thought about another possibility?"

"It's just maybe, maybe, in this world, not everyone is bound to get carried away."

"Not everyone cares too much about the people they like and what they want, and becomes illogical, emotionally confused, unreasonable, cranky, and neurotic."

"On the contrary, some people's minds become extraordinarily clear just because they have what they want."

"Because only when you are clear, tough, and emotionally stable, can you accurately find out where the problem lies, and you can grasp the overall situation and bring the whole relationship in a better direction—two people in a relationship, at least one of them must be clear-headed to not leave. Wrong way?"

"So, I want to ask you again, what is deception?"

"What do you mean it's all fake?"

"In our junior high school chemistry class, when playing with slightly dangerous chemical reagents, the experiment teacher will constantly emphasize the need to take precautions and wear protective gear in advance. What is this called? I think it is called 'responsibility'! A rational human being, to When it is clear that the other party is a dangerous person and a former criminal, without making a plan and leaving everything to such illusory things as 'love' and 'confidence', expecting to use some ridiculous warmth to influence the other party, that is true Is your mind completely out of order?!"

"So what did I do wrong?"

"I'm just trying to be a... umbrella, that's all."

"Although you understand it as 'betrayal', as I said earlier, to me, it was just a necessary measure. And this journey, Seth, is not alone. groping."

Ever since Alvin Yang was left with the psychological shadow of being murdered, he kept complaining every day. He said, Professor Pei, I believe you must not be a love brain, but you still... Be careful with Seth!

After all, the most terrifying villain in the world is not necessarily the one who dares to admit his own sinful nature.On the contrary, Seth keeps saying that he treats you as a friend, and then pushes you down the hill suddenly. After the push, he still looks so pitiful, sincerely sad, wronged and helpless, as if the whole world owes him people who want to It's more scary.

The world is really big and there are so many species.

You know, there are naturally anti-social people who never feel that they are wrong! ! !They have never been normal, and they cannot be normal.For the vast majority of people in this world, love is a gift, something that will make people feel warm and better.But for a small number of never-satisfied demons, love and pampering will only become a poison to infuse evil, making them more and more crazy.

So, Professor Pei, what kind of... is your little dinosaur?

No matter which one it was, Pei Lin was neither afraid nor confused.

But in order to confirm, he still can only try his best to break it apart with infinite tenderness, trying to explain this truth to him.

boom--

A headbutt.

Pei Lin immediately sobered up, and made a mistake, trying to reason with the double-standard crazy little dinosaur? ? ?

Huo Xiuxun didn't understand the truth.

He understands all the truths, he is simply ignoring!

So, the unsightly follow-up was completely started, he grabbed Huo Xiuxun's ankle with his backhand, and let the little mud dog gnaw on the mud again.Not to be outdone, the little mud dog jumped over and threw him on his back.

The rain continued, and under the gray sky, there was Huo Xiuxun's muddy, mottled, distorted, resentful face.Muddy water dripped from his cheeks, and one or two drops landed on Pei Lin's face.

Pei Lin deeply felt the absurdity and unevenness of the world.

Because someone was going to die of anger, the dog's paws were shaking with anger, and it was so angry that it rubbed the dirt on the ground to make deep five-finger marks.

But what is he angry about?

Everything that needs to be said has been said, and everything that needs to be explained has been explained. Huo Xiuxun's IQ level is definitely not such that he can't understand human language or understand human logic.

So, what is he thinking?It's impossible to really read the brainless sweet pet article and read the brain. Even if you do something wrong, you can't listen to a half-truth criticism, just pointing at the "criminal childhood shadow is justifiable, so it's right" all your life. In the floating world?

Huo Xiuxun sneered: "Oh, Professor Pei is joking, how dare I?"

"Don't dare! Of course what Professor Pei said is correct, of course what Professor Pei said is the truth! I am ignorant, I am unreasonable, I am anti-social, dark and abnormal, the bright and great Professor Pei educates too well Okay, I'll take it all, okay? Satisfied?"

Pei Lin: "Seth, are you a donkey? You can only stroke your hair?"

"You like yin and yang, don't you? Okay, you can. Yes, yes, yes, Xiao Xun is right, everything is fake. I am a liar, a heartless performance maniac, and I will spend several years in order to arrest criminals. Give hugs, cheat feelings."

"Of course everything is my fault, how could our little Xun be wrong?"

"Xiao Xun is the most innocent person. Xiao Xun is the only good person in the whole world. He had to sell the virus system back then, and he had a lot of difficulties in committing murder on Ningshan. Unlike me, he secretly saved someone. There is nothing better than this." Even more rebellious and despicable?!"

……

……

At six o'clock in the evening, the newly purchased large LED screen of the downtown hotel read "Happy Birthday, Young Master Pei".

Although the son's birthday party is in name, it's actually a complete and complete meeting. It's just another social meeting place for two lively entrepreneurs, Pei Libin and Tang Caiping. We invited a hall, and there was only a table of my son's friends, and the rest were all kinds of bosses and officials. It is clear that the birthday protagonist is just a huge prop board, as long as he shows his face.

Pei Libin: "..."

Tang Caiping: "..."

Showing his face is showing his face, and the prop son also managed to bring his awkward plastic friend.

However, for this honor, it's better not to come!

Both faces were painted, looking like a pair of defeated roosters.Pei Libin quickly explained with a smile: "Haha, playing ball, playing ball! Both of them are the main players of the school basketball team."

Don't tell me if you see through, everyone will follow hahaha.The banquet continued, and the three-tiered cake was toasted and laughed.

Only Zhao Xinglu was as stupid as ever: "You two actually went to practice behind my back? It's not okay, don't study secret tactics secretly, you must call me together next time!"

Pei Lin: "..."

Take him with you, and call a fool to watch the grown-ups learn how to swear in elementary school, and then fight in the mud?

Huo Xiuxun: "Hiss—"

The corner of his mouth is cracked, it hurts to drink soup, and he is irritable.But Pei Libin drank too much: "Oh, why is there no wine on this table? Just kidding, the waiter will bring two more bottles of Moutai!"

Pei Lin: "Dad, look carefully, all my classmates at this table are underage!"

Pei Libin: "Hey, they're all boys, and you have to cultivate your capacity for alcohol from an early age! Why are you afraid of drinking? I think your father and I were ten years old, and our face remained unchanged..."

Pei Lin: "Mom, can you ask my dad to teach me something?"

Tang Caiping: "It's true that you have to practice alcohol from a young age. You can't drink white ones, or you can drink some red ones? You can always drink beer ones, right?"

Business parents are scary.

……

At night, the rain stopped and the moon and stars were thin.

In the downstairs corner of Huo Xiuxun's house, there is no one in the small garden, a very small pavilion.A lonely street lamp, no one and no moon.

"Are you okay?" Pei Lin said helplessly, "It's just a glass of beer, how can you get so drunk? When you were abroad, didn't you often attend the receptions of the rich and powerful?"

There was no answer, Huo Xiuxun hung on Pei Lin's body in a daze, rubbing back and forth like a big samo.

"Okay, don't rub it first, can you go down first? It's cold outside, let's go upstairs and go home first, come on."

"I do not."

"..."

His clothes were newly changed after returning home from the fight, and they also had a large fur collar, which was stained with the faint fragrance of flowers and plants in the closet.He only drank one glass, so even though he was drinking wildly, he didn't smell like alcohol.Just hugging life and death and refusing to let go, it really looks like a big fluffy dog.

Pei Lin patted him: "Xiao Xun, are you still sober?"

"Unconscious."

"..."

"Then, if you quarrel and quarrel, you quarrel and fight, have we turned over today's article?"

"...No, no turning over."

Some people are really stubborn.

Obviously already thinking about it.Willing to go to the birthday party with him after the fight is an admission of cowardice in action. Adults understand it, but they refuse to admit it as always.

Pei Lin shook his head and sighed, hugging his big dog weighing more than 100 kilograms, soft and heavy, helpless and funny.

That's all, let's take a step back.

"Anyway, let's make an appointment. We don't have to hide anything from now on. We need to communicate as soon as possible. We both have to abide by this matter, huh?"

"Seth, in fact, communication is really important. You've spent so long abroad, you probably don't know..."

Huo Xiuxun sneered, "Oh."

It's a perfect rant.

Pei Lin raised his eyebrows, and instantly dreamed of the famous scene where Zhao Xinglu, the second-to-last in the class, was full of confidence in teaching the last-to-last Chu Zhenhuai to study ancient poems.

Just, in his previous life, he actually didn't like to communicate with others.

Dare to be a good teacher here and teach others to communicate.

Probably the only difference is that his non-communication is simply lazy.Huo Xiuxun's non-communication is terrible, including a lot of cranky thoughts, fancy contradictions and grievances, all kinds of duplicity, and he is infatuated with hate at the same time, and worried about being cheated at the same time.Eternal panic, fatal self-destructive tendencies, and finally put on a face of mockery to push out what you want desperately.

This disease will be cured sooner or later.

The severity of the two is different, and both have to be treated.

"Otherwise, let's try it now."

"Right now, try how to communicate. How about exchanging a secret?"

"..."

"Then I'll talk first."

The breeze blew, and the fur collar blocked Huo Xiuxun's ears, and Pei Lin's voice was not very clear.

"Actually," he said with a serious face, "occasionally I fantasize that you have secretly...liked me since before."

The street lights went out at that moment.The whole corner of the garden was dark at night.

"I-I didn't—"

"Hmm, yes, 'fantasy'."

"But this fantasy is very important to me."

"My parents, you have met them too. Although you can get along with them in harmony, it is a pity that I still can't get along with them... Those two people have made me feel that they are in this world for many years. In the world, there is no one I can completely trust and rely on."

"But this is very bad. Because you should know better than me that what a person can't get when he is young will grow up like crazy when he grows up."

"Me too, actually."

Because I have never received the complete love of my parents, I can't help but hope to get enough compensation from other places.But at the same time, the reason is very clear, even your parents can't love you wholeheartedly, how can others love you, and why?

Therefore, the more you want to find someone you can trust, rely on, and like, the more you will involuntarily have high expectations.

Examine, doubt, scare away all those who try to get close, and then force yourself to die.

"But since I started to 'fantasy' and felt that you actually love me secretly, every day is very happy."

"Slowly began to believe... a lot of things. With confidence, I also had unprecedented motivation and courage, and even felt that I was invincible."

Huo Xiuxun was quiet, as if frozen.

Pei Lin lowered his eyes.

"So, I really always thought you were cute."

"Even when you are irritable, when you ignore people and lose your temper, I think you are so angry because...you care about me."

"It feels real."

"I always hope that I can be with a very real person. Express any dissatisfaction without trying to please me. You can see your sincerity, like me wholeheartedly, and at the same time stick to his bottom line and dignity."

"In my opinion, Xiao Xun is that kind of person, and has always been."

"..."

"Okay, I'm done."

"It's your turn, where's your secret?"

Huo Xiuxun leaned on Pei Lin's shoulder and remained silent for a while.

After finally opening his mouth, his voice was slightly trembling and hoarse, and he said, "That's just your hallucination."

"It's a fantasy."

"..."

"If you want me to tell you one thing..."

"..."

"..."

"Others," he said in a hoarse voice, very difficult, "you can call me... anti-social, chameleon, criminal, devil, I don't care, but you can't."

"Only you can't."

"Okay, since you mind, I won't say anything in the future." Pei Lin nodded, but frowned slightly after a while.

However, this seems to be just a requirement.

And it's not "a secret".

But at that moment, inexplicably, there seemed to be some fragments that had been neglected all the time flashed by, like a lightning strike, Pei Lin caught something extraordinary at that moment.

It was as if everything had suddenly been explained.

Yes, he doesn't care about the little dinosaur's actions, troubles, and all kinds of inexplicable grievances.But after a few years, he couldn't help but whisper in his heart. He didn't have many years of secret love experience, so he really couldn't fully empathize with it, but if it was just his superficial speculation...

It's just that I can't love it, so I shouldn't be so wronged.

There are many people in this world who can't love, and all along, many of Huo Xiuxun's performances are not so much years of secret love, but closer to years of... resentment.

As if Pei Lin owed him something, he gritted his teeth to pursue the love debt.Yep, getting closer to that feeling all the time!

But how is it possible?

Pei Lin tried his best to think back to those years in school. The ridicule of "little murderer" was not something his upbringing could say, and he should not have accidentally bullied Huo Xiuxun on campus on an objective level.

What does he owe him?